ok not much has gone on in my life. made an appearance at a family gathering that was hosted by Marilyn who is much crazier than i. which is saying something. i stayed for about an hour. and left after eating dinner. i went to sunfresh to talk to Mama Jonhson. we talked for about an hour and half. all the "drama" that has gone on this past week. and then proceed to tell her about the night. and then that i was going to go to ihop and play with karen. since then i talked to kat and renee was there and i was ingored and found out that she is now with someone named daniel. so i did not ask her out. i was going to do it but then i found out that she is going out with this army. gr arg. i am not happy about that cause he is not her normal type but she is his but they get along fabulously. so i guess i'll have to accept this for now. so now i don't know who to ask out. cecil, abby, karen, amber, jason,and myself went to WOF on tuesday of last week. and it was fun. i'm now hanging out with jared, ema and sariha, and karen. i'm going to join them now. have a good night then folks.

i feel i should post again

I don't know why but i should post again. Talked to Mama on friday night. Once again I was told to vaule myself over everyone else by her. I think I am starting to do that. On monday I am going to try and find the courage to tell someone how I feel and that it's either me or I'm done with waiting. I can't wait anymore it hurts to much to be around this person and not be with this person. Yes i understand that this person needs time to find out what they feel but i have given them time, time and time again. It's time that i go out on my own and see if anyone wishes to be with me. Or at least go out a few times. I talked to Kat last night. and I think I am going to go see somone. As in go to a theaprist. I don't know how it's going to go cause i don't like talking on the phone but that's how i am supossed to set up the first thing, or whatever. Not much else to say. Loves and huggles.

more on AX

yes we got back in one piece and on time even too. ^^ it was a blast i have ever mentioned that i love the beach and the sun? well i do. i love it so much that i want to stay there all day and live on the beach. i got burnt but it was worth it. worked today and will have my friday night date morrow night. i have got pic printed. will show them to everyone. when i see them. i did not go to the gaia panel. i stayed in the room and had a conversation with cecil. i also figured some more things out while i was talking to him. i played in the water at the beach and we found a dead jelly fish on the beach on i took a picture of it. it was amusing. i still need to get on meds i think but i really don't want to. hopefully mama johnson will be there on friday night. i heard a horrid rumor that she might not be there. hope that is not true. ^^;; o yea while we were waiting in line for the masquarde the people came round to play rock paper sissors again. and i played and won a pin. it is so cute is is a girl in a kimono. it is purple with pink flower things. the masquarde was great. the host kept saying "it's cosplay, get used to it." which was funny. cause he would say it randomly or right atfer something happened. ^^ some many groups and two or three that did not get to go on cause i guess they got lost or were no where to be found. i don't know what else to say. love and nighty night.

jesus it's been a long time since i last posted. right now i am at Anime Expo in Anaheim,CA. it's a blast. but really huge. wow lots and lots of people. many, many, many, people. don't think i've ever really seen this many people in one four block area. it's insane. but i love it!!!!!!!!!. i talked to mama johnson before i left for AX. she had some very good ideas. i don't know if i will do any thing with it but i will at least do things if she bugs me to do them. i bought a momiji hat. it's fuzzy and has ears that are kinda floppy but are stiff. meaning that they can flop foward but will stand up if flopped foward. lol ^^ i also bought gravitation manga two and three, an AX 2005 t-shirt. and won a Mihosi coin by playing rock paper sissors and winning three times in a row. ^^ really happy about that. wished that it was Sasami but since i'm most like Mihosi it is fitting that i should get her. karen has meet all the people she came here to meet. simon is very quiet but that is possibly due to the language barrier. but other than that all is well. and we are waiting to go to the gaia panel which starts at eight and goes eleven. karen and i went to Mythology session yesterday. we also went to the tea ceremony today, that was awesome. i loved it wished that they could have done the whole four hour tea ceremony but many people would not have stayed or gone to it. but i am a strange breed of person. i am starting to need some time by my self. going everywhere with karen and not really wanting to is ok for a while but i will need to be alone sometime. very soon. i'll update more when i get back to kc. loves adn huggles.