time for a new post. it's been a week. many things have happened inbetween this post and the last post. so on tuseday night the rents and i went to trade in sandy to get mom her olds minivan. took forever. i remember looking at the clock and it being five thirty and then again and it being seven. so after that we went to arby's to have dinner. came home and stayed home. then on wensdayi went to work and got off then went out on a date. yea! the date and i talked about what should happen between us and why. will not go into details. on thursday i got up and went to cultural anthropology. i decided not to go to holcaust because i needed time with my friend karen. so we went to dustin's house and woke him up. after waking him up i made coffee and he made food. we then went to a store at either 40 and noland or 7 and noland. i'm not sure which but it's the one with the old sam's club there and coyote ugly bar is on the other side. the store is behind the shake and bake. it's a great store. it has lots of anime stuff, cds, dvds, manga, and the best part of it all is that it has POCKEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. sorry i love pockey. it is good. so anywho after the anime store (sorry i can't remember the name) we went to petsmart (there also). looked at the animals and fish and such. then went to this vingate store there also found a fw things a tunk and wigs and things that could be used for cosplays. then we headed for the car. called chris to find him but couldn't then called jared and keith still no chris. keith and jared were doing other things and had to get them done. so they did not come and play with us. so we then headed to a store i forget what store but karen used a rebate and got some flipflops and sleep wear. shortly after that we were at dustins house. jen called and said that she would be over. so we waited for her and i took a nap. nap's are good. when jen arrived about an hour and half later she was hungry and wanted to go some where to eat. so after convinceing people that she was hungry we went to tgi fridays. had dinner. then went to kat's house cause we had not seen her in a long time. jen took dustin home and then came out to kat's. stayed there til about tenish. and left and went to ihop. heather and mike met us there we did not return to get dustin cause it was late and i didnot want to have him around. don't get me wrong i like dustin i just wanted me time with karen. so after not having cheese cake we left and i took karen home. on friday little c and i were supposed to get together. but she slept through it and kinda lost her cell phone. so i went into work and waited till mama johnson got there. i don't remember what we talked about but it was a good time like always. saturday morning i wake up and went to work. yea for work. got off and the wagon was still home. it was supposed to be gone and in a junk yard. but it was still there. we went to dinner. after dinner i headed out with charlotte. we saw ice princesse. i really liked it. and also got to have me time with charlotte!!!. very good. i missed having me time with all my friend's now that more than fifteen mile sepreate us. so sunday we went to church and left early because mom had to sign the thingy to let the junk yard have it. then we went home and did nothing until i had to got to work. mama johnson was filling in for sarg. i was sorry that she was there. cause htat meant that her daughter is not wanting to see her. T_T when i left work i did not want to go home. so we talked about that and that i could talk to her anytime. but i went home anyway and stayed up doing homework for tuesday. then went to bed and woke up toady and went to work and come home and did laundry. and still doing it. trying to get ahold of little c and see if we can go out. she said that we might could. don't know if it will happen. well laundry calls.

hello. it's almost been a week. ok less than a week. cleaned out my car. majorly. mom is getting a new car to her. and i get her's. yea!. and the parents are going to trade in sandy. i'll be happy when i have jimmy to my self and no more mom's stuff. hope that the parking pass will transfer to the jimmy. i don't know if it will. have school morrow. i'm ready for cultural anthropology. but for holcaust class i'm not and it's not going to happen. i want to do it but i can't find the movie adn i don't ahve enough time to read a book on the subject for the paper. char is going to come up next week.!!. i am so happy. and i'll get to see little c on friday. hope to get to play with char. and hope that we will get out and party.

sorry ><

sorry that i have not updated in a while. i've been busy and had other things on my mind. i told the church. they thought thtat it was great. david's sermon was great. the first service is always pratice but we don't let them know that because they would not like that. david did not call me on saturday. he was busy doing other things. nor did we we to talk at any point but that's ok becasue i bet he hardly had time to spend with his wife that weekend. i have been invited to eden any time that i want. but on another note. i went up to lamoni yesterday. and came back today. i'm on spring break right now and i will get caught up on my homework. i'm going to talk to john about my life story. in my story is my story about how i came to the decision of minstery. would like to find someone. that would be nice. i'm so looking and no one is looking for me. i am ready. maybe they are there but i don't know it. maybe i'm the oblivise one. how do you know when so one is liking you? what signs are there? another note. officer johnson read my poems. was leary about letting her read them but should have known. it's mama johnson. she knows and understands all. asked the right questions and at the right times and was a great moment i thought. but i could be wrong. would like to have it be a defining moment in our friendship. but i don't know if it happened. know that she has a little more insight to me but it did not change her opinion of me. which i am glad. i did not know that she would just look at what happened and see that it was in the past. most people are like wow no way and get very emotional, or over protective. but i guess that's ok cause i'm very over protective, and jealous. but that comes with the what has gone on in my life. on a brighter note, i don't know where to find one. cause i can't seem to keep a straight thought. so now random things that come to mind. i'm watching mash right now and i love it. i love mash. it's a great show. so now that i have finished my puncho i don't know what to do next. but i am reading Love Ellen by Betty DeGeneres. so far it's good. and i'm also reading an idiots guide. i really enjoy the idiots guides books. they are simple and tell you things in a matter of fact way and once you read them you can go and get other books on the same subject and read them and understand them better than before. will have to get Ellen's book. it sounds good also. miss seeing everyone. i wish that i could see you guys again. and have just one on one conversations with you. each and everyone. there are a few people at school that i talk to but they are just there. they are in the same class adn we talk about the class and that's about it. i need to have a deeper conversation. i'm going to go crazy. i need more than just class and weather and what i do for a job and how my day has gone. i know that they care. i know that you care also. i just need someone. maybe that is the reason no one is looking for me cause i need them. ...