i've decided on something else

so with that title i should tell you what i have decided. i have decided that i should once again take up music. in seriousness. and not as in just to keep up my grades. i should pursue it. i should seek it out like a dog in heat. i know that, that was a crude term but i could think of nothing else that would fit. so i just now need to get into gear and do it.

i am currently trying to put together a cd of fifteen songs that matter, or mean something or remind me of whatever. i know that i want certian artists but not what song of theirs. i would like green day, tori amos. thoughts anyone on what song?

don't know what else for tonight. love and sweet dreams.

today

so today was molly's memorial service. it was good. i still think that she's here. i just don't feel that she's gone. but then i didn't see her gone. nor did i see bob gone either. i still kinda think he's here too. i know that i wish they were. martha was wonderful and so was david. david was excellent but that's par and or expected, that he would be good or speak. it was supposed to start at eleven. lee did a wonderful job of improving. cause as usual john was running late. we sang three songs. and at the end after the benediction a small ensemble played when the saint's go marching in dixie style. a banjo, clarinet, and tuba. it lasted about two and half hours. don't know what else to say now, about today.

so next subject. i went to glenna's today and had fun doing a pisnaka. it's the ukrainain easter egg. and it looks awesome. just as long as mom dosen't touch it we should be fine. ^^ i loves you mommy. not that my mom reads but just thought that i would tell her that i did love her.

i guess i jsut don't have the will to write right now. good night and loves to all.

everything sucks right now

so you may now ask why everything sucks. i don't wish to tell you but i will because it's a way out. molly died.

ipod

so i'm finally re updating my ipod after updating it late to have christmas songs. and so...still waiting on the ipod to update. but it's a good thing. don't know if i should work on saturday or not. i've been asked to work overtime on saturday. for six hours. which wold be good money and also money that i need to fix car. one of the other checkers got fired for mouthing off to the owner. which i can't blame him. things have gotten worse in the hate comments. and the bitching that is coming from one co-worker. am so wanting her to leave. but she's not going to leave. she's become one of the fixtures. she's become one to the trolls. the white haired short trolls. we have many of them. and she has become one of them. they never leave. they are always there. they "never have days off". nor any time for family. all said so get sympathy. all of which to untrue. i am sick of them. but i am also dealing with them better because of the happy drugs. and blaming them for what they do. and not me. ^^ is always good thing to know it's not you.

will miss the co-worker that was fired. he was nice and cool. adam. for those who might be reading and knowing who i am talking about.

don't have anything else to talk about right now. night.

so i found out that julianna is not coming until April but that's ok.

nothing exciting to post. will get kinda a raise at work. meaning that when i stock i will be making a dollar more. yea!!! more money. is always good.

am also waiting on April for testing of asthma.

work morrow. mondaytuesdaywensdaythursdayfriday. breath and off saturday and sunday. nine days straight when i am done. not complaining. just it's going to be crazy cause i need to do laundry. cause i have no work shirts as it is.

went to naka kon. was fun. didn't get to do much casue i had to work. bought a hat. with kitty ears and was rainbow. it screamed at me to buy it.

love doing sunday nights again. miss nancy. can anyone tell me the inrony in this statement: it's ok you can tell me i'm safe. ?! your safe. if your safe for the person you wouldn't have to tell the other person that your safe. or at least that's what went through my head when someone told me that from church. which is not to say that there aren't safe people at church cause there are. or they are for me. and would be for anyone else for that matter.

can't think of what else to post cause nothing is going on.