grr arg

so i am now a new member of the adult CE board. it is going to be interesting. so it's now going to be more people and still no one doing anything. with our little four/five of us we all did our part. am not happy about this. but it's not what i want it's what the head of CE wants. she wants all three boards to have a leader and she just mingle the three which is a big thing in and of it self but when the sunday night group works and she put us on the adult board without our sure we'll join is not a function thing. it was a join us for this meeting and we'll support y'all in with what you need. very vague. so i went to said meeting with an open mind. sorta. i knew who was on the board and knew that a few of the members did not play well with me in general. so when you get more people like me in the room with them they become hostile. which is great. not so much. in this paragraph when i say people like me i mean young, excited to do stuff and get things done, (and not have conversations to have conversations) with new ideas.

so i've also got a meeting with john morrow. i will be happy for the summer. i am not a winter person. i am sorry that this blog entry is so negative. i do not mean to be. i don't like the cold. don't like the ice. don't like the snow. am glad that the roads are clear. am glad that i did not wreck this past two weeks. am glad that mom has retired. it's nice to have her home.

kat's sister went crazy. kicked her husband out and is now living with the man that they housed for a while and might be preger's with his kid. i wish her peace. i know that she is fighting many demons, many things that are not hers and she wants them. i don't know why. i do wish her peace. i wish her joy. but mostly right now she needs peace from within. she needs to be ok with who she is. i also wish her love.

i got a complement on my bra. a customer wanted to know what kinda bra i wore because it had nice up lift on it. ^^ so i told her. and i love the bra i have on right now. it's got a little padding. and i love the feel of it. i love how it makes things feel when i dump into other things. i know that sounds bad but it's not meant to. it's cushioning. and now i must end this tirade of negative energy to sleep and such. night and love.