i sorry that i did not post this sooner

ok so i told mom that i was gay on monday night. the first words out of her mouth were "i'm tyring to think of which of your friends convinced you of this." and i had to twist and contort myself into not spewing back at her no one convinced me of this, it took many years for me to accept who i am and be ok with it. but i did not because i figured that i would not fight that battle with her on the same day that this great shock came to her. and yes it was a shock. i thought that she had some clue or thought but no she did not. it was complete and utter shock. and then the next words were "and how are you going to tell your father." i was hoping that she would have a clue and help me tell him but since she had no clue and was in complete shock i did not. i am going to wait a bit in telling him until she comes to understand and accept it and then ask her what she thinks.
char is coming home morrow and will not have classes!!! karen is comgin home, also.
must get off puter it's getting low on battery and i don't want to hook it up right now so i'll post more morrow. happy st. pat's if i don't casue i'm going to try and go to the paradre.